4 am.

i arrived home after a week of being gone to the most special gift waiting for me on my bed.

you are the kindest thing. your words and pictures made me smile and dance around my bedroom.

then you came over and the night got even better. we talked for hours before crawling into bed to watch some Dexter on Netflix, and to steal a few kisses here and there.

You make me so happy.

I looked over only to see you staring back at me. I asked if you were hungry, so down to the kitchen we went to make a 2.30am snack.

Back upstairs we raced to watch a few more episodes, and finally around 4 am. our night came to an end...with you right beside me.

I absolutely love those nights.

Love. Love. Love.

Snow Falls..

This week I watched the snow fall and realized I loved lazy Saturday mornings spent watching hours of Dexter with you. I realized I loved sipping hot chocolate while sitting at the computer watching ridiculous videos. I realized I loved your grin, and I hope that if I'm with you in years to come that I never forget how incredible seeing that smile makes me feel. I realized I loved your jokes, and your caring ways. I realized I loved spending hours just sitting around the house talking, and how each story you tell intrigues me more and more. I realized I love your hands, and the way they rub my back out of habit every time we sit down together. I realized I loved your laugh, and the way it fills up a room.

I realized I loved the way you effortlessly fit in to my life.

So, I guess what I'm trying to say is that this week I watched the snow fall and I realized that I have absolutely, no doubt about it...

fallen in love with you.

scary? yes.

wonderful? definitely yes.

day one.

Day One.

Tj came over.

Went to buy RV antifreeze.

Went to get camper.

Brought it to my house.

Checked it out.

Ran to Ace to get cords.

Got ice-cream.

Came back to camper.

Looked over all light switches/heaters/drawers/cabinets.

Realized the previous owners didn't think it would be cool to empty sewer lines.

Had a mess.

Laughed at each other once realizing what I had gotten myself into.

Cleaned it up. (while gagging.)

Tj fixed oven. and fridge. and everything he could.

Ripped out part of ceiling to see what we had to work with.

Removed random screws throughout camper.

Called it a day.

A perfect day one if you ask me.

Ps. this thing came with working party lights. it might have been filled with crap..but working party lights make up for a lot of things. :)

sold.

They say money can't buy you happiness.

However, $500 brought me some joy...

And she's all mine.

...and she's beautiful--even if she looks like a diamond in the rough right now.

:)

Have a happy, happy week.

Grow and be ready.

Isn't that the hardest part of life...

The whole growing and being ready part?

Never in my life did I think that was true. I thought I needed somebody to help me grow. Somebody to grow with. Now more than ever do I realize that you need to be comfortable and happy with you first. You need to figure out what is going to make you smile, and what is going to hurt your feelings. You need to figure what makes your world happy, instead of relying on what makes others happy. Once you are the best you possible- I think thats the time you will find pure happiness in others.

You won't want to waste your time with someone you aren't quite sure about.

You will be at that point in your life where you know you can be happy on your own, and it's at that moment, in the complete calmness of finally enjoying who you are that you might just meet somebody that is exactly what you are looking for.

For me it's somebody who will walk right on into my house without knocking.

Someone who finds fun in hanging up pictures on the wall.

A guy who feels bad if you don't talk that night.

Somebody who at the hint of a smile can make my day.

..a guy who rinses his dishes off in the sink.

......someone who helps me look for the remote after i've lost it for the 5th time that evening.

... somebody who makes me feel comfortable asking him the most uncomfortable questions.

..someone who i cannot wait to kiss each moment i see him.

..somebody who respects this world and the people in it.

...somebody who makes a road trip more fun, rather than awkward.

...somebody who lives in the moment and is up for anything.

..somebody who enjoys doing nothing.

...and somebody who can make me smile. For real.

So, make sure you are truly happy with yourself before you rely on somebody else to put happiness into your world.

It's a lot easier that way.

Because if nothing else, what is there to lose?

If you were happy with just being you, life will be good either way.

Someday...How about today!?

Hi my name is Awna, and I think I just bought a camper.

I am about 94% positive I am going to do this for real.

It might be slightly ugly now, but I have big hopes for her.

I'm thinking wooden floors.

Colorful bedding.

White Cabinets.

And an amazing exterior paint job.

I cannot wait.

Summer 2011 better be ready for a few roadtrips and fishing adventures.

Doesn't that kinda look like a slice of heaven?

I think so.

I think I might need a pickup.

tired.

"Are you tired too?"

"Yes."

"Then let's go to bed."

Somedays it's the littlest words that take up the most room in a heart.